hmmm...

lately i feel that i'm transported back to my practicum sch...
did i ever mention how much i hated that place?...
i absolutely hated my colleage.. the one that stuck with mi through...
pls see why..
conversations always started like that
"oh manz u look like seriously bad!"
"u better go and put on some make up...though i tink that seriously wont b of much help" cues hysterical laughter on her part
"or better still let me suggest u go for like plastic surgery..dun tink that even if u did that u will look much better.."


YeS believe mi every single fucking day n many times on certain days i'll b constantly reminded of how ugly i looked, or how huge i was...
LikE HelLo if i looked that great with such stunning beauty i'll be like some international supermodel gracing like tons of magazines n ppl will b swooning at my feet!..
well obviously i possess none of the above traits but still that doesnt give one a damn reason to constantly criticize or pick on mi....

its like a known fact that is constantly rubbed into ur face!! its almost as hurtful as saying:
"manz u're like as short that i tink u can ride public transport for free!"
or " u noe u look so darn bad that i tink ur offsprings will probably be riduled for life cuz of ur looks"

these are things that r just not very nice to say!
get my pt?!!!!
its seriously beyond the boundaries of mean or teasing...
they r just plain hurtful, vindictive and spiteful!
wat the hell do ppl gain fr saying stuff like that?!
sadistic pleasure that u look better than the entire world?!..
like seriously pls... there r like a billion faults in evryone if one scrutizes..
i dun exactly freaking care if u're suffering fr inferiority complex...cuz it still doesnt give u the right to pt other ppl down like that...

coming back to pt that i feel like i'm being back in my prac sch...
well... its bad enough of feeling excluded...
dun make mi start dreading n hatin to bump into u...
cuz all the time..all i hear its just somathing not very nice...
its kinda difficult to keep hearing stuff that i myself am damn sure abt...
i have always known that i'm not like pretty or even average..
but pls stop rubbing this into my face cuz its akin to rubbing salt into.. seriously into my wound...
apart fr the fact it stings like hell..its a natural instinct to back away fr wat is causing the pain...

Florence