hmmm...

well that silly woman is gone...of cuz not before she managed to get her claws on a ridicuously obsence amt of money... all i can say is sometimes i realli do feel sorrie for daddy... that of all the mums in the world..he was given this one...

i realli do believe in karma..when u r nice to others..though often ur efforts might go unappreciated or taken for granted but at the end of the day u, urself noe that u have done n tried ur best...n i guess that is all that matters..

i had an extremely enlightening talk with someone the other day... the topic of frens and how i was mentioning that a few peeps have been so caught up with activities in their lives and all...n i fele towards it.." you cant blame them for the lack of time..cuz they only have that lil amt of time..so wat u expect them to do?" that was wat she said...then it struck mi..

i was and never was blaming them or resenting the fact that they were occupied with other stuff.. or rather wat bothered mi more than any other thing was how it was done...hmm..maybe i should clarify myself..well i guess it doesnt take tt much time n effort to msg or send an email or something u noe...just to at least continue to keep in contact... but i just dun get it how ppl conveniently use the excuse of "no time" n kinda cut all means of contact..n after experiecing the sudden and aburpt breaking of connection... how the heck do u expect one to pretend n act like nothing much has changed?!...

i dunno whether did anyone realise...but i rarely tell others that i'm busy or wateva...or even if i realli do have plans..i do make the effort to find another day so that we can hang out n basically just catch up with one other...

the feeling of being a slotted convenience or a spare tyre is not a great feeling...but the feeling of taken for granted is even worse.. i have told myself countless times to try to tink fr the perspective of others...well for once can u all try to tink fr my pt of view?!..Nah...forget it..i tink i have reached the stage that i'm pretty much past caring n falling over my feet to please others..wat the heck?!... i guess in times of adversity, u realli do realise who exactly r ur true pals..

haiz i'm so jaded n tired of all this crap...i used to be so affected by stuff like that...but lately i realised that it didnt hurt as much, it didnt matter that much either...mayb as time goes by i will learn to let ppl who used to be paramount in my life go... then maybe i'll look back in a couple of yrs down the road as a harden cynic...that ppl just take others for fools... n i was indeed a huge one...

Florence