great...jus great...i'm sufferin fr one of my bouts...

actually didnt wan to even type them into words but there again wat the heck tis is mY outlet...

in times of need...some ppl turn to reglion hopin that it will provide with some sort of answer or
some divine intervention/show some bloody sign...

to my dismay..i jus realised that in times of need... i cant turn to anyone/anything...
that is sad isnt it!...

someone once said that...i'm realli quite quite gd at concealin my real emotions preferrin to lead conversations to make others talk...some hv complained tt i'm not being fair at all cuz i dun share issues tt bother mi but i wan to help others instead.. n that is realli the funniest thing cuz i cant even help myself rite now..sad rite?..

ppl ard mi seem to only rem my existence when they need someone to accompany them to somewhere... or need that extra person to share a gift... n all the more reinforces the sad fact...

frankly at this pt of time...jaded is realli an understatment...its totally beyond that... i guess when u spend more time with ppl or put in more effort in certain frenships...one's expectation grows... n i'm jus bloody sick of being taken as a fool.. i jus cant keep giving all the time..its not only too draining but its jus too sad...

is it too much to ask that at times i'll being considered or something planned or done was with mi in mind... ya i muz b some freakin self-centred bitch...

wateva the case i'll jus too sad to even mention it...so i tink i'll jus continue to soak the pilliow as i lay my head to rest...

Florence