~its a wonder..~

today I made peace with the inner demons that have been within mi...the questions n doubts in my mind r weaken...n i'm glad that i sent that sms... clearing up the air...n honestly the words replied gave mi a sense of release...n i do feel bad considerin the fact of the intentionally distance myself so that i wont get hurt again..n yet despite all my flaws u still considered mi as one of ur closest frens..i'm truely humbled

well, i'm willing to give evrything a try...n start fr a new slate... i tink i've found the closure i've been seeking for...it doesnt hurt like wat it used to...n though the mention of his name still makes my heartbeat a tad faster..but it doesnt skip a beat anymore...i might still tink of him in moments but not with thoughts of maybe's n the future...

i'm free of u...

n i finally came to terms with the issues pertaining to frens!in a way i'm glad...cuz i can breathe easier n at least i dun feel so suffocated n burdened!..i'm still far off fr being happie n contented..but at least i took the first step..

one strange thing that tis fren said..." mayb u radiated some kind of light.." n then i started tinking i'm no angel at all.. but he said "yeah he noes it too, but somehow it might b cuz of this innate radiating of light fr within that jus draws ppl to one.." then i started making it to a joke " mayb thats why insects always cant help being attracted to lights in ppl's houses! n then they get killed for it! " hahaha that is funny wat!!bleah!

Florence