~god muz have heard mi...~

today i dragged my ass to sch for ced meeting..sitting on the bus alone pondering abt tons of stuff..staring blankly in space...decided to immerse myself in crowds so that the sense of alienation and desolation wont b overwhelming..decided to chill out at a cafe..was drinkin a frappe..n i did that shit again..the sec sch ppl looked at mi with a strange expression on their faces..hell if i was in their shoes i'll probably react in the same way!today is a first time that my fingers kept msgin non-stop..n cuz i was typin to other ppl at the same time..i didnt even realised i sent a msg to someone else instead...things got bad today..so bad in fact that i decided to walk home fr jp..jus as i left my seat n wanted to pee before embarking on my journey..i saw someone that i havent seen for a while..its so weird to see her..of all days today..jus when i was telling myself/mayb it was god ba..that i needed a sign to show my existence actually meant something to others..i saw her face thr the sea of faces..with mouths gapin we exclaimed surprised..drama aint it?..we started talkin n i realised that though in the past a misunderstanding n greatly parental influence caused us to rift apart..today justified that time does not play a great role..it was strange..that after all these times..i could rem effortlessly wat sort of person n traits she has..wat she likes/doesnt..its an amazing fact considerin my brain is worse than mush!i missed her..quite weird for mi to proclaim that aloud but i do..i'm the kind that i'm not content being in the shadows..i rather b a part of a person life..knowing the person in depth too is jus too crucial for mi..mayb its cuz of my character/personality traits..hmm..mayb thats y quite a number of ppl commented that i'm so like a gal's sch gal..today i heard it again..i couldnt take it so i asked wat exactly r they?..apparently its my behaviour n my outlook on certain issues..wahaha funny rite considerin the fact i only spend 6 yrs in one!..

its strange when one craves n seems to b in greatest need for human company..one rarely gets it..its funny isnt it...those that u thought would always b there..in times of turmoil..cant find a trace..lalala i walked her back to where she came from..n started followin the 172 route..so dumb..i only walked a small part when rain started to fall...i wish it would have rained heavier..mayb it would hv done some good..clease all the shit out of my system..took a bus back in the end.. fr westwood sec there.. by now i should have been accustomed n thought out evrythin..but tis time..it seemes more difficult..sometimes i wonder..i seem to hv an affinity for the"bad guy role'...i'm starting to wonder am i realli like tt...

~oh well...~

Florence