~Its amazing....~


sometimes i dun even understand myself..wat do i actually want out of others...why i do certain things...why do i get so damn hurt when i see the postings of other ppl's blogs on days they have spent with others...

its like one only matters for the time period...for that short-lived moment..well is it?!hmm...am i purposely distancin fr u..in hope that i wont b hurt as bad should the same thing occur to mi again..mayb..maybe not..the feeling of disappoinment n dejection is too fresh a reminder ...n i jus i'm not ready to open myself to opportunities where i can b wounded again...

anywayz enough of ramblings...i'm spending more time with others..in a way its good la..i get to catch up with pals i havent met in the longest time..a change in style n attitude is great...went out with jac on fri n my gosh we realli shop lorz..not clothes la..but we jus bought other ...erhm.."neccessities"..more like wants n desires la!! jus wan to thank jac for being a sweetie ..u noe i was feelin down n to cheer mi up tis gal brought mi to town n got mi a pair of earrings!! aint she the best!!hahaha in fact i gotta to say most ppl i noe treat mi pretty well..like giving mi free lunch n tea!! which was superb by the way..getting mi little trickets.. sometimes i jus wonder y cant evryone b like that..as in the first thought would b frens ba..jus in doin things to make each other happie..givin in to one another..sometimes i realli start questionin myself..is it worthy...all that i do..wat i've done..i dun feel the same from u..do i expect too much..or mayb sometimes i realli dun matter at all..ya mayb thats the case..

~ so wat the hell am i to u?!~

Florence