~heyz folks!~
nite of 3rd Oct


okies...i left off pretty abruptly the last time i tries/attempted to blog...so here goes...ya..i noe that all has been pretty busy with all the mountin truckloads of sch work (ya teachers thanxs a whole load)..the past couple of days in sch were stressful not jus in terms of academics...n frenships as well...i dunno la..i always thought that when somethin major happened b'w a certain gp of ppl it should jus stay in tt gp...dunno whether is it i'm too sensitive..or r some givin us the weird look...i admit that burstin out was not the smartest thin to do n sayin all those hurtful stuff doesn't help...i'm startin to wonder...where did we left it??...how do we continue??...or should it b a polite facade tt it appears to b well..BuT its not??..like wat am i supposed to do??!!i'm not some bloody machine which can churns out appropriate emotions ok!...

i noe those those pals who r not in sch u'll probably b confused by wat i'm tryin to say,...but wat the heck i myself also dunno...tryin to sort out wat i feel...i'm sorrie i didnt confide in u all n kept it to myself..cuz i didnt wan u all to worry n no pt gettin u guys upsetted rite?!hahha ...i thought evrythin was solved n cleared after that big issue...now i'm startin to tink...is it realli resolved??or has it gone too deep that...mayb we cant settle our differences...it started way long ago...but mayb the tahan-in part did the most damage..it sorta snowballed...and rammed its way onto the dams...n now that the dams r damaged...is it that easy to repair??!!if it was that easy...that evryone would b great frens n misunderstandings only last for seconds...i dunno...somethings can nvr b resloved..take my sec sch frenship with this particular fren...till this very day we dunno speak to each other...i learnt a valuable lesson fr that...it takes two to keep a frenship goin...understandin n honesty to hold it firm and lastly bein there for one other(not jus one sided..where u jus make the other feel used...)...it is thru these few rules that will cement it into place..of cuz its not easy..who said it was easy??!!but it takes a lot of effort fr both parties...haiz...sometimes i realli feel that its not in my hands to say ...whether it will eva workout or can this rift b healed...all i can say is...time will tell...(i noe thats a clinque phrase la!)haha

~i wanna heal!~

Florence