~birthday galore~
nite..actually morn of 20th Oct..



celebrated bey's bday today for the first time in a long while!!great experience though..somethin jus struck mi today...how little i noe of my frens...i dunno wat happens in their lives...almost nil..is it cuz i talk too much...or mayb others dun trust mi yet...or the worst case i'm too self absorbed n freely tellin details of my life to others...gosh...scary thought which was indeirectly planted by Bsea!...

had a slight tiff with mum...not tellin the details but lets jus say...i feel physically sick now...its amazing how somethin so trivial can snowball into this huge issue...

someone jus asked mi "r things lookin brighter for u?"...i dun realli noe wat the ans is....i thought that i could handle evrythin..mayb i was wrong..well jus a mayb..i wan someone to jus b there..is that too much to ask..n cant explain y i'm feelin this way...sense of frustration,helplessness,jadedness....all rolled into one..i gotten get a grip of myself..n stop cryin over evry damn thin..fine u dun wan to talk to mi so b it!...deadlines comin...do somethin abt it stop ur bloody whinin florence...problems at home...jus shutup so tt it wont evolve to b a major one....ya..so there!!evrythin will b solved....

~well jus sod it!~

Florence