To the person that was once so imp to mi that i could change my plans cuz u wanted to hang out,

jus read ur lastest blog entry somethin abt not pleasin evryone so its no pt so u gotta jus pls oneself....well i tink i noe u're referin to mi lor...seriously i dunnno wat else to say liao...i gave u so many chances n oppurtunities for u to meet us ...but wat can i say mayb u got ur issues n probs la i wont noe cuz u dun say ...i already gave u the time(since hols started)n space but nothin is accomplish...mariam is kind she said mayb u got issues u dun wan to say or wat n lets wait till sch starts then c how!!but i'm not that type of person ..i never was n will nvr will b ...i dun like to face uncertainity n unpredictability i dunno wat the hell is goin on nowadays we dun even talk ,c, online,meet! n mayb u expect evrythin to b normal n all but i dun like pretenses yupz i'm frank n thats brutal but heyz it saves evryone the trouble.. others might not say in fear of hurtin others well its true it hurts but at least u noe wats goin on...actually i prefer to say it into ur face so that u can actually c my facial expressions i'm that expressive my emotions r written there n i dun hide!i used to tink a lot abt how to phrase my words but in the end its no use it gets misinterprented..tink i might as well jus say it upfront..n yes feel free to throw wateva back in my face.i'll b more than happy lor cuz frankly i hv received a fair share of hurts n weapons thrown at mi....so i realli wan to noe ur side of the story so that i wont b prejuiced....words r no longer sufficient to describe wat i feel anymore i hate myself when i hv to say somethin i dun mean jus because i noe u will feel unhappy n all...how can i lie to myself n others but feel so shitty after that??to tell u the truth i havent been sleepin well tinkin abt wat the hell went wrong b/w us ??wat could i hv done /could do to reticfy the prob..sometimes i realli start to wonder is it because we r in the same sch thats y its taken for granted that u will c us thats y u cant seem to meet us evrytime??or somehow we drifted apart but u cant bring urself to say it out?or u simply got no time at all for ur frens?or is it ur family or wat??see wat i mean these r jus a few things that r in my mind...BSEA u asked y i'm so stressed now i tink u can y liao...too many unspoken questions that cant b ans i tink....to that person i'm sure u noe who u r rite?n dun need for mi to spell it out?i realli hope that we can clear it up b4 sch starts cuz i nvr had the trait of patience n yapz its wearin very very thinly to the pt there r realli a lot of holes...i wan to get this clearesd b4 it breaks..cuz i noe that once that happens there is seriously nothin much to do cuz no amt of super glue will help.....

yous sincerely,
florence

Florence