~shucks~
late morn of 4th JuNe

got a verbal trashin AGAIN fr him "u better talk politely to others", "u tink u 20 very big already ah better know ur placin in tis house"...blah blah blah..there again its always ironic to hear wateva that spills out fr his mouth so ya mayb i made the mistake of smirkin haha but ya so wat i can't help it lorz cuz u dun seem to b able to truely understand wat n the "importance" of ur stand?!oh ya did i forget to mention the flauntin ur authority n position as head of the house will NOT earn my respect at all only my disgust n resentment!!yupz i know my placin how can i ever forget that fact which u hv ben drillin into my head since yonders ago..i held my tongue literally bittin down to keep the lashin of vemon u're lucky i did if not i know that u cant take it cuz once i start i wont stop n my my i will pity u in the end cuz when ppl r cornered u'll b amazed at the extent of intentional hurtfulness i intend to inflict...but i'm tryin to control..sought refuge in my room..turned up the vol of the tension cd to drown out ur shoutings...so apt..pathetic fallecy...its stormin n the rain is whippin thr the trees..jus like the emotions coursin thr mi..n the song i happen to b listenin to is abt "a challenge" whoa so qiao lor...music soothes my soul feelin the anger seep away but no worries the scar u seared in my already deformed heart will always b a "lingerin" reminder n yes i am strong n i will NEVER give u the satisfaction of seein mi fall or crumble!!u were always the one...i used to wonder wat hv i done to deserve that..i guess i've grown up..i stop even questionin jus ya "like wateva" it makes no difference regardless of wateva i say..i'm fuckin tired of toleratin..manz i cant erupt cuz i noe the destruction my words will cause n u will jus b a tiny figure swept off by my vicious lava....


~Let the MuSic heal My soUL~

Florence