~siGh~
nite of 28th of MAy

another day has past n tml signals another new day...time is so slick cuz it always manages to slip unnoticed n yet u noe that time has already gone n will nvr come back tinkin abt it tis comin july will officially mark my one yr in Uni liao..haiz gettin older by the min manz ..in the goin to b one yr period of time i made some pretty good frens n some hmmm...interestin coursemates.. n guys nil possible or even eligable ones wahaha mayb i'll jus b a spinster la jus i'm a gal who actually believes in the silly notion of at least likin someone in order to tolerate a lifetime of vows..i dun wan to end up like them the ppl that has broken marriages i've seen that happen far too many times n hopefully when i'm older i will nOT evolve to b some horrid $$ grabbin person where money has a higher priorty than others ..i'm afraid of so many things..like for ppl i care abt, my frens n family yes even my jack ass brother.., wat kind of person i'll turn out, the modules i have to take next sem , the grades i need to make up for erhm..last 2 sems.., the teachers , the work, students..aAAarrrrrggggggghhhh ya pravtically evrythin..time is always preyin on the weak n i guess...i am in a certain sense..i get too sensitive n emotional, tinkin too much over stupid stuff which r so trival compared to wat others r experiencin..shhheessshh wat a self-centred brat who doesn't care for others?!...hahah*bitter laughter* sometimes i realli am startin to wonder does anybody even care for mi?? he doesn't even noe a damn thin that has happen in my life all he is concerned is freakin nos n grades cuz of ur stinkin pride n ego, she only talks to the males n only when it is utmost necessary talk to mi..., to the other i'm a listenin to complaints n bitchin...like heyz i can only take that much lorz in fact do u hv any any idea how tirin it is to keep listenin to others murmerin "oh..ah..ya" n the other 2 r well busy i supposed...hmm...isn't it wonderful wahhaa yupz i tink thats abt it ..in fact i hate bein dismissed when i hv somethin to say i get cut off with a "u shouldnt...or thats enough" i want to speak but i can't ...so wat else u expect mi to say so i don't..sometimes u all ask mi why u so quiet very scary!!u noe wat is scaryin??hahha at times i jus dun even feel like openin my damn mouth to bother explainin to u all my moods n like hello b4 i do its always justified by others that" oh..mayb someone step on ur tail.." like who the hell u tink u r lorz since u r so great n all best i don;t even need to further explain myself at ALL!muz there b a reason for evrythin?sigh..tink i'm rabblin like a headless chicken again..i nvr make sense to anyone anywayz yupz..well...ciao before i make a complete disgrace of myself ..AGAIN..

~u were my strenght when i was weak, u were my voice when i couldn't speak u were my all in all...~

Florence