~Jaded~
Mornin of 21st May

i cant believe i even woke up early...manz even borther so much lorz..i used to look forward to ur sms but now wheneva i receive them on the day we made plans its 85% confirm to say that u jus cant make it due to other commitments..i didn't tink much of it at first cuz i told myself that i hv to b understandin to the other party..despite the fact that u dun even give a reason for ur absense last time..at least now u r supposedly improvin ...but hey put urself in my shoes la how would u feel if tis close fren u hv has repeatedly done tis to u...i can't stand it ok..everytime everyone is so freakin happy that yes finally we can meet as a gp..then the "i'm sorrie i can't make it u 2 go ahead with mi la" like hello imagine an inflated ballon jus lets out all the air...ya thats how my spirits are completely deflated..does that happen to all ur pals or jus mi in particular*ponders aloud* i'm realli startin to qns myself..in fact i dun even noe for sure anymore wat u're thinkin..mayb its not ur nature but i realli*to the power of infinity* like others to b frank cuz i'm damn sick of tryin to figure out other's thoughts cuz its jus simply drainin not jus of the mind, but my soul as well..mayb u dunno it but its freakin irritAtin to b lifted so high n plummeted to the lowest pt..u told mi to speak up my mind to let u noe how i feel..but words sometimes r excruciatin to say..like wat..is it cuz u're afraid of wat damage ur words can do to mi??!!well i'm been thr way worse so no probs i can take wateva that u hurl in my way jus SHOOT ...communication is vital a two-way thin not..fraught uncertainity...sigh..jus deliever ur blow in one shot k cuz rite now i'm jus constantly hacked wheneva another blow u "unknowingly" deliever is jus bringin mi deeper into he darker region

Florence